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• that's a shame

  I used to think one must have done something shameful to feel shame, but I now see it is far more complicated than that.

  June 16, 2025 journal-entry

• silence

  Your bottle traveled 11,665 km and washed up on my shore.

  June 15, 2025 poetry

• sliding doors

  Dad always talks about something he calls sliding doors: seemingly inconsequential moments that completely alter the trajectory of your life.

  June 14, 2025 journal-entry

• the bitch called loneliness

  I know that bitch called loneliness is coming for me soon.

  June 13, 2025 poetry

• this apartment

  My body,
  it is littered with reminders of you.
  

  June 10, 2025 poetry

• my love

  Let me tell you about my dearest one.

  May 4, 2025 journal-entry

• i love to write & introspect

  I think writing is my greatest passion.

  April 17, 2025 journal-entry

• the fog

  I never want to forget I am my own best friend. For such a long time, I was at war with myself. The poisonous fog made me think I was my own worst enemy. For a while, that was true, but now it's not.

  April 17, 2025 journal-entry

• softening

  Let's talk about softening.

  April 7, 2025 journal-entry

• gut feeling

  My gut feeling is usually always right.

  March 25, 2025 journal-entry

• youth

  I am sitting in the bush and the tree I am under is dropping it's spiky, rock-solid seed pods. I am waiting for one to land on my head.

  March 22, 2025 journal-entry

• chill, you cretin

  Hey you overthinking, melodramatic, obsessed lil gremlin. Chill the fuck out.

  March 18, 2025 journal-entry

• romance

  It is your DUTY to make your future self proud and fill that person's life with beautiful experiences.

  February 11, 2025 journal-entry

• nostalgia

  One day you will feel nostalgia for this moment, so don't waste it pining for the past.

  January 3, 2025 journal-entry

• what a big emotion

  I love the diffusive ability of adopting an unserious and light-hearted mindset when it comes to emotions.

  January 3, 2025 journal-entry

• permission

  Stop looking to other people for permission. Just do it.

  January 1, 2025 journal-entry

• the year of getting it

  This year I will achieve great things.

  December 31, 2024 journal-entry

• be brave and surrender

  I need to practice surrendering to the moment and stop trying to control things.

  November 30, 2024 journal-entry

• gentle

  I want to learn to love gently.

  November 30, 2024 journal-entry

• give it a little smack

  Welcome back to "Rangar's Unfiltered Train Thoughts."

  October 1, 2024 journal-entry

• bullshit

  As a principle, I hate bullshit.

  September 21, 2024 journal-entry

• with myself

  I am listening to Calyer by Beach Fossils this Friday evening and my heart has started to pine for someone to share the moment with; a new romance or close friend. But in this solitary moment, I realised my most profound companion is me.

  September 20, 2024 journal-entry

• tangents

  I like this thought: there are infinite versions of me in the space of my future.

  September 20, 2024 journal-entry

• no more rangar bashing

  Stop it.

  September 20, 2024 journal-entry

• oh my god, it's a full on double rainbow all the way across the sky!!!

  Earlier this afternoon I went for a walk on what I thought was the least opportune moment to pick out of the entire day as it started to rain.

  September 20, 2024 journal-entry

• disentanglement

  I am excited to disentangle any limiting beliefs I hold and replace them with intentional beliefs.

  September 20, 2024 journal-entry

• port wine magnolias

  There's a port wine magnolia growing a couple of houses down and its scent distinctly reminds me of my childhood home.

  September 19, 2024 journal-entry

• great inspiration

  There is no reason I can't imagine that all the incredible figures I learn about are my personal mentors.

  September 19, 2024 journal-entry

• Estee Lauder is a boss

  I was listening to a podcast about Estee Lauder, and I felt a deep pang of envy at hearing Estee describe how her mother would instil confidence and self-belief into her as a child.

  September 19, 2024 journal-entry

• depth

  I miss being desired. I miss being coveted. I miss having sex.

  September 17, 2024 journal-entry

• don't deny it, or maybe do?

  I don't want to be the kind of person that denies their feelings for the sake of others. That's so lame.

  September 16, 2024 journal-entry

• supernova

  My love is mine. No one can take it away from me. Love isn't a weakness; it is beautiful. Even when it hurts; especially when it hurts.

  August 11, 2024 journal-entry

• longing

  Sometimes my heart aches so much it makes me smile.

  August 11, 2024 journal-entry

• sharing is caring

  What is life if not for other people?

  July 7, 2024 journal-entry

• dualities

  I think I need to accept I won't, nor can't, "figure it all out". Emotions are elusive. Insight is elusive. I think I understand myself and then I am confused again.

  July 7, 2024 journal-entry

• you're alright

  I like who I am.

  July 7, 2024 journal-entry

• protection

  As I was walking back from the train, I said something to myself that felt so profound: "I am going to protect you."

  July 6, 2024 journal-entry

• memory is not just a function of a computer

  As much as I want to focus on my career, helping others, and having an impact, I do not want to waste my youth.

  July 6, 2024 journal-entry

• cry baby

  A truly beautiful song just came on and I started to cry.

  June 23, 2024 journal-entry

• haha, death

  I went to a theme park by myself yesterday.

  June 16, 2024 journal-entry

• one fearless little plant

  I had this silly thought as I watched this flimsy plant be barraged by a continual torrent of water at the bottom of Skradinski Buk: "you're a silly little thing for deciding to select that spot to grow". In reality, the poor little plant decided nothing; it grew where its mothers seeds deposited themselves.

  June 9, 2024 journal-entry

• but i'm just a little baby

  I had a silly but profound thought as I was people-watching in the Old Town of Split.

  June 9, 2024 journal-entry

• people are good

  People are good. Humanity is good. People care about one another. People come together in times of hardship.

  May 18, 2024 journal-entry

• be a wise child

  I want to always live as a child does.

  April 23, 2024 journal-entry

• quiet confidence

  I must always remember to not take life so seriously.

  April 21, 2024 journal-entry

• there are symmetries in veins, trees, and rivers

  Here is some silly introspection I wrote on a random piece of paper as I was sitting in the strip of parklands just South of the Maribyrnong river.

  March 25, 2024 journal-entry

• on the contrary

  Force yourself to have contrarian ideas.

  March 25, 2024 journal-entry

• calculated leaps of faith

  At first glance, I thought this phrase seemed contradictory. But if you consider it for a while, you'll find it actually describes a nuanced approach to decision making.

  March 4, 2024 journal-entry

• airplanes & feathers

  Airports are fascinating places – no matter their size. I love smaller airports and, as a matter of fact, smaller airplanes. I love how you can feel every wind current, every eddy, every bit of turbulence.

  December 26, 2023 journal-entry

• jacaranda trees

  The jacaranda trees are blooming.

  December 14, 2023 journal-entry

• messy bags

  I think the way someone keeps their bag tells you a lot about them. Mine is a fucking mess.

  December 12, 2023 journal-entry

• triumph

  The triumph of a tree breaking through the canopy of a brutalist landscape, defying all odds of growth in an environment poorly built for trees by not only just growing at all, but flourishing beyond all of its few companions.

  September 17, 2023 poetry

• thic with six c's

  Capable, courageous, confident, controlled, considerate, & content.

  March 7, 2022 journal-entry